My Story in Brief
I grew up with what Psychologists now call Emotionally Immature Parents who are distant rejecting and generally self involved. You are left feeling invisible ,worthless, If you are inward looking then you perform for them and be who they want not who you are. You are kind and thoughtful and hope to receive the same in return- it doesn’t work. Being a “performer” can become a way of life.
You often have no words of your own when you grow up in such a difficult family so you turn to the arts to find someone who understands such as in music and lyrics. Singing songs that resonate with our inner truth.
Initially after school I worked for two years in a bank in Piccadilly London. It was physically located between St James Church – a hub of New Age Thought and RADA headquarters. I later thought it was a kind of metaphor of my work to come. I brushed up against drama by way of cashing cheques for famous people going next door!
Eventually I got a degree and qualified as a commercial property chartered surveyor. Working in every kind of organisation from commercial agents and local authorities to retail chains and managing private investors property and residential land development sales.
Generally feeling I had not created a life I could call my own I started an emotional /spiritual investigation of life starting with my own pressing questions. So much of my creativity and authenticity had been lost but after years of work was reclaimed. I knew how passionate i was about providing an emotional education for those who had been similarly affected. So much of life had been adversley affected by those early years and it takes so much effort to undo the damage. There has to be a better way than just letting people find out for themselves by trial and error. Its too costly a way to learn for society and people themselves..
The purpose of this site is to share creatively how to do this kind of work. If we are not expressing our emotions responsibly I believe it is damaging not just to ourselves but to the planet and nature. We become angry and frustrated in our uncreative lives and this impacts everything. Feelings have to go somewhere and we can see how pressured people feel and how out of balance the earth is. We need new ways to understand ourselves and to be more creative in every way.
I did mentor a care disadvantaged young lady through MCR Pathways organisation. A charity to help youngsters at school with one hour a week as a mentor. I realised that despite the need, some cannot open up to receive help with life issues. Being creative and expressive rather than academic they need a different kind of mentoring and thus the Music Mentor was born.
If you would like to learn more about this or the videos or would be interested in a talk for your group about such things then please get in touch.
Yours Creatively
Angela Courtney
